Structure is all around us everywhere we look. It’s one of life’s great organizers. But for the first time in my life I have no structure to my days. When you think about it, for the most part, structure is provided to us by our parents, school, spouses, children, work, etc. This is the first time EVER that my structure canvas is absolutely blank. I am having to reinvent that structure, to provide structure to my life intrinsically, not from outside sources.Now that I don’t have someone to wait for, cook for, or spend my evenings with, those evenings are running into my nights which are running into my days, which are…… The only structure that I have is the self-imposed kind, which is not enjoying much success at this stage of my evolvement.
So, with all these thoughts in mind, I am trying to force some kind of structure upon myself. The alarm is being set. The calendar is being marked with planned activities. No, not the exciting kind of activities, but the kind that remind me to vacuum, to weave, to do finish work—you know, all THAT kind of exciting stuff. Today was my official Day One in my Learning to Structure All By Myself. If I could rate it, my hand would be wobbling back and forth in that so-so kind of way. I got up on time, finished all the chores in the time I had allotted, only to be flummoxed at the next stage. Although I did get the studio a little tidied up, the warp did not tie itself, nor did the weaving begin. Tomorrow. Is that Scarlet’s voice I hear?
- 15 minutes de-cluttering
- Tie on warp
- Begin weaving project
- Continue with maintenance on other items
How bad can that be? Trying to keep it simple so that I have some chance for success! My fingers are actually itching to weave, just gotta start!
Does anyone else have trouble with adding structure to your days? How do you structure your day?